Reflection of the day.....

When I woke up today I just didn't feel like working out. However, this is a lifestyle and I knew if i didn't I would feel guilty and crappy about myself all day. This is silly and I know it. My body would not change missing a workout. I wouldn't get fat. Not a soul would notice. But exercise is part of me and I feel it when I miss it. But I am also very conscience that this is part of "my issues". Having previously had an eating disorder in my 20's...this guilt is just an extension of that. This is something I work on every day. I work hard, I eat right most of the time. I should feel good about that, whether I miss a workout or not. I reflect upon this alot....especially because I have a daughter.

As I watch her with her friends I am amazed at her confidence her grace and her overall personality. I am very conscious of not speaking of diets, negativity regarding my body and my lack of confidence in front of her. I wonder when we lose this confidence. At what stage do social pressure catch up to us and make us question our worth? Why do we connect our body images to our worth? We can be the smartest people in the word but once we question our beauty why do we lose that worth? I use to think this was just me but its not...its everywhere. I will do whatever I can to not have this story be the same for my daughter. At 4 she's not going to get it...but I will help her. I will show her beauty is on the inside. Exercise and eating well is for good health and to feel good.

I can honestly say Beachbody has helped me. Shakes have helped, the amazing workouts have helped but you know what really made the magic?! The people. The support. The challenge groups that keep me accountable. The stories that sound like mine. The openness of peoples lives and hearts to help one another. And right now...the fact that I have become a leader to many. To be needed in another capacity...to help and motivate others. To help them reach their goals. The positivity I receive from the help I am providing drives me and fulfills me in a way I never new possible. Makes me want to drive harder, help more people..because in turn, it helps me. I get healthier about my attitude regularly now. I may never feel 100% but I sure am better. Thank you to those letting me help them on their journeys. I truly have an amazing team and look forward to growing it more with pride and confidence...